Venting...?

Last night was a rough night... I just don't know what to do anymore... It's hard to love someone when they have hurt you so much. Yeah, she is my mother... and I try and be nice for the sake of my nanny. But... it's hard to forgive... much less forget... it's difficult. And then, thinking about my sister... it's almost impossible to comprehend why she would do what she did at that age... and for that long... and to her younger sister (I know you don't know what I'm talking about). And my dad... just sitting there watching it all happen to me and not doing a thing... It seems like the ones I should be closest to... the ones I should be able to confide in whenever something was wrong or I just wanted to talk, they just wanted to hurt me. I still don't know what I did wrong... Why I deserved all that happened. Now I sit and look at my friends, and their (seemingly) perfect families... Them being able to tell their mom or dad anything and not being embarrassed or scared. All I really wanted for Christmas was a family to love. And to be loved back... and treated like a person and not a Piece of dirt. So many unanswered questions... I'm not sure what to do with myself anymore...

Hoping your happy in your home...
-Karleigh